All Is Faith

Descartes says, "I think therefore I am," but Pascal reflects on our place in the universe. Whatever "I" is it is both infinite and infinitesimal - the same with our thoughts, feelings, etc. Nothing about us is remotely definable because our place in space and time is undefinable. It stands to reason therefore that if we cannot define something we do not know what it is. And if we do not know what it is we are talking about, we are talking only gibberish. Further, if a thought cannot be truly defined then who can be certain a true thought has taken place? No wonder Pascal says about his contemporary, "Descartes useless and uncertain" (Pensees, 78).
But then what is known? Descartes searched for what is indubitable, but what he found he cannot define and therefore knows nothing about. What Descartes found is that a person of uncertain existence seems to have a thought of uncertain existence. The problem lies in the very nature of existence - Descartes cannot define that either, nor to my knowledge has anyone since. If Pascal is correct, then all that is called "knowledge" is uncertain.
This is why Pascal talks about a mathematical mind and an intuitive mind. The mathematical mind, the mind of process, is limited to process. Our world today claims that knowledge comes out of the mathematical mind, but that is completely false. It is this "mathematical knowledge" that the paragraph above calls into doubt. Rather all knowledge comes from the intuitive mind. Descartes intuits that there is "thought" and from that he processes there must be an "I" to think. But in the end it is the intuitive mind from which all knowledge comes.
But what then is this "intuitive mind"?
It is belief, or faith, and it is a gift.
Our problem in philosophy today is that human arrogance has necessitated that existence must be essential to everything that exists - and to the mathematical mind that would only seem to make sense. Yet existence is not essential to anything that is given. Everything given must be given from something already in existence. But it is better to say "created" than "given" in this context because we are not talking about one eternal thing giving another eternal thing, rather we are talking about something which at one time did not exist becoming existent for the use of another thing. If something did not exist at one time, then existence could not be essential to it, existence must preside outside of it, its existence is, and always will be, a gift. Something therefore must be eternal and able to give this gift of existence, and to give it in such a way as existence is continuous, or at least appears to be. The Christian God could certainly fill this role, and He identifies Himself as "I AM". God identifies Himself as the one who exists and gives existence.
But I must remember that even all of these thoughts, as all thoughts, can only be believed. They are gifts. Yet what if the gifts are wrong? What if I am being deceived? No doubt the enemy of the Giver of Truth would be called the Father of Lies. And lies would be the enemy of existence itself. And truth would be so absolute, so complete, dare we say so holy?, that any imperfection would a mistake in the very grounds of the existence of everything.
Could it be that Christ can to restore existence to those who would believe? Could it be that belief in the truth is the very grounds for existence, so that there truly is only one way to "salvation"?
More probably needs to be said about this, but I believe my wife and daughter just came home.